runelateralus

Well, the bad thing is that I have to get a new printer, so any plans I had to go to New York for Spring Break are now gone for shit.

The worse thing is I still feel like shit for no real good reason.

I am having trouble sleeping. I can barely pay attention to things. It has been a week and I still feel angry, sad, and guilty...

God, I hate this...I really need to take a break from everything. My account needs to renew on Friday. I am almost tempted to cancel it just so I can actually force myself to get off this site for a bit, cause I know being here isn't helping out at all...it is making it worse. I don't understand why this is bothering me so much. Yeah, I put a lot of faith in the person, I almost figured it would happen. I guess I feel guilty because I already expressed my anger and I really do not know the whole story. You know, something to justify my anger, or show me it is unnecessary...but I won't even get that...not that I really deserve anything anymore.

The more I think about it, the more of a pathetic person I am. Most people would have just shrugged this off...and yet, here I am, upset about a girl who didn't show up and for no reason. I joined this site for friends and I am dumb enough to fuck that up. And look at me...people have some real life problems, I am bitching and moaning about this...God, no wonder why I am so lame.

*sigh*

At least I am drawing again. Take whatever is good from the bad, I guess...

Well, later y'all. I will be back soon. Don't know when though. I need a break to clear my head.