So I was talking about my job status at my internship...telling them that I work two part time jobs. I think they get the wrong impression about me and the jobs I have.
I work both at a JC Penneys and at a Gamestop in the same damn mall. Hell, they are next to each other in that shithole.
The Penney's gives me the most hours of the two places. However, it never seems like it is enough moneywise. Plus, I really can't stand working the place. It is a fustrating enviroment for me. People ask me "why don't you quit?" The answer is that I did. I just ended up back there two years later. I only get about 12-18 hours a week. Sometimes, I will get 20. But never an amount that will be beneficial to me.
Gamestop on the other hand...well. I haven't work there for a month. Seriously. The last time I worked there probably either the end of September or the beginning of October. My past two paychecks were for $0.00. They have some weird scheduling shit based on the performance. Despite the fact our store is one of the busiest in the state, they give us shit hours because our numbers are low. This whole numbers thing I have been bitching about for a while. The numbers being pressured on us and yet we don't work for commission and we are just either high school or college students...or just graduated from one of them. Working there, however, was a pain due to the numbers thing, but after going back to Penney's, it is so much more enjoyable. The enviroment is more comfortable and I feel that I can be myself more without ridicule I will get at Penney's (the fact I am a gamer gives me some smart ass comments from the dumb ass teenagers that work at Penney's).
Of the two places, the place I can't stand gives me hours, yet the place I like neglects me. Fuck.
So what is this whole entry about? Honestly, I don't know. I am really just sitting here and typing for no reason what so ever. Kinda of like a stream of conscience thing.
I really want a job in my field, but no one wants to hire me.
I am really beginning to worry that my path in life might have been a wrong one that will lead me to nowhere.
But then again, I am already in nowhere....maybe I will be able to find myself out. The doubt and worry I have is something I always do. I get it from my mom. I always get uneasy feelings when things are not looking too positve, but things turn out for the best.
In sad and bright news at the same time, my internship will be ending around Christmas time. It is sad because I really enjoyed working with them. I got some good stuff done and the positive things they said about my work have give me more confidence in what I can produce in terms of modelling (especially with texturing, as that was something I felt like I was lacking in before). However, it is good because then I will be able to take home my models and textures I did for the internship and have some bright new work for a new updated reel. Hopefully after that, someone will hire me.
I work both at a JC Penneys and at a Gamestop in the same damn mall. Hell, they are next to each other in that shithole.
The Penney's gives me the most hours of the two places. However, it never seems like it is enough moneywise. Plus, I really can't stand working the place. It is a fustrating enviroment for me. People ask me "why don't you quit?" The answer is that I did. I just ended up back there two years later. I only get about 12-18 hours a week. Sometimes, I will get 20. But never an amount that will be beneficial to me.
Gamestop on the other hand...well. I haven't work there for a month. Seriously. The last time I worked there probably either the end of September or the beginning of October. My past two paychecks were for $0.00. They have some weird scheduling shit based on the performance. Despite the fact our store is one of the busiest in the state, they give us shit hours because our numbers are low. This whole numbers thing I have been bitching about for a while. The numbers being pressured on us and yet we don't work for commission and we are just either high school or college students...or just graduated from one of them. Working there, however, was a pain due to the numbers thing, but after going back to Penney's, it is so much more enjoyable. The enviroment is more comfortable and I feel that I can be myself more without ridicule I will get at Penney's (the fact I am a gamer gives me some smart ass comments from the dumb ass teenagers that work at Penney's).
Of the two places, the place I can't stand gives me hours, yet the place I like neglects me. Fuck.
So what is this whole entry about? Honestly, I don't know. I am really just sitting here and typing for no reason what so ever. Kinda of like a stream of conscience thing.
I really want a job in my field, but no one wants to hire me.
I am really beginning to worry that my path in life might have been a wrong one that will lead me to nowhere.
But then again, I am already in nowhere....maybe I will be able to find myself out. The doubt and worry I have is something I always do. I get it from my mom. I always get uneasy feelings when things are not looking too positve, but things turn out for the best.
In sad and bright news at the same time, my internship will be ending around Christmas time. It is sad because I really enjoyed working with them. I got some good stuff done and the positive things they said about my work have give me more confidence in what I can produce in terms of modelling (especially with texturing, as that was something I felt like I was lacking in before). However, it is good because then I will be able to take home my models and textures I did for the internship and have some bright new work for a new updated reel. Hopefully after that, someone will hire me.
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Apparently, the kids in the SGPDX crew started a whole thread about my departure. I love them so much.