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Buried under work... lol but still unmotivated. This girl i had been dating told me that "we must be on different pages" LOL true as hell.. I'm distant because I'm jsut not looking for love, and I guess she is. I have way too much going on in my life.

Anyway, Went to class last night, and performed like shit. I've been getting cramps when...
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Still at work.. fuck. I was out with pneumonia for 2 weeks, so I'm under a pile of shit. I have Kendo practice at 8.. but I'm feeling so unmotivated. Plus I have a sensei who scares the shit out of me, and I'm hoping he's not around. I do need the practice... I have a tournament in LA on the 29th and I don't...
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Further

At the end of days, at the end of time.
When the Sun burns out will any of this matter.
Who will be there to remember who we were?
Who will be there to know that any of this had meaning for us?

And in retrospect I'll say we've done no wrong.
Who are we to judge what is right and what has purpose...
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All the world will be your enemy, Prince with a Thousand Enemies, and when ever they catch you, they will kill you. But first they must catch you: digger, listener, runner, prince with the swift warning. Be cunning, full of tricks, and your people will never be destroyed.

Eckhart saw hell too. He said:
The only thing that burns in hell
is the part of you that won't let go of life,
your memories,
your attachments.
They burn them all away.
But they're not punishing you, he said.
They're freeing your soul.
So,
if you're frightened of dying and...
and you're holding on,
you'll see devils tearing your life away.
But if you've...
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