I got pierced today 
And I came to a bit of a conclusion. Aside from discovering that my skin is the same shade of porcelein whether the photo is color or monochrome 
The past month or so has been strange. I feel like I have completely transformed and come into my own. That last time I was pierced (my lip) was a year and 3 months ago; I was shy as fuck. Tonight, I was joking with Matt, the piercer and actually correcting the dots and everything. The idea of talking with him didn't scare me, didn't leave me thinking "Wow he must think I'm an idiot." I know I used someone completely to get to this point, and I do feel awful about that, but at the same time it was a stepping stone I feel I needed. I wasn't attracted to J at all physically, but he was a pretty cool guy. Too bad he went all junior high on me when I tried to tell him and apologize
I've also been a lot more open with certain friends; particularly the one who has been a constant tidalwave in my life for the past two years. I feel suddenly and inexplicably like I can actually talk to him, and deal with however he reacts instead of getting confused and lost.
Going to the parties this past weekend was pretty much the "breaking" point I think. In life, once I have done something I am usually completely changed by it. I become confident almost instantly. It was my first time going out anywhere to meet complete strangers by myself (although I had met 3 others who were at the HiFi before, and am glad I had known them prior) and I'm so glad I did, I am now not nervous about talking to new people. I just have this new bounce in my step after everything that has happened, and I love it so much
And this is the thank you I haven't said yet to him 
edit: I can't think of anything different to put in my profile. even though I badly want to update it.
And I came to a bit of a conclusion. Aside from discovering that my skin is the same shade of porcelein whether the photo is color or monochrome
The past month or so has been strange. I feel like I have completely transformed and come into my own. That last time I was pierced (my lip) was a year and 3 months ago; I was shy as fuck. Tonight, I was joking with Matt, the piercer and actually correcting the dots and everything. The idea of talking with him didn't scare me, didn't leave me thinking "Wow he must think I'm an idiot." I know I used someone completely to get to this point, and I do feel awful about that, but at the same time it was a stepping stone I feel I needed. I wasn't attracted to J at all physically, but he was a pretty cool guy. Too bad he went all junior high on me when I tried to tell him and apologize
I've also been a lot more open with certain friends; particularly the one who has been a constant tidalwave in my life for the past two years. I feel suddenly and inexplicably like I can actually talk to him, and deal with however he reacts instead of getting confused and lost.
Going to the parties this past weekend was pretty much the "breaking" point I think. In life, once I have done something I am usually completely changed by it. I become confident almost instantly. It was my first time going out anywhere to meet complete strangers by myself (although I had met 3 others who were at the HiFi before, and am glad I had known them prior) and I'm so glad I did, I am now not nervous about talking to new people. I just have this new bounce in my step after everything that has happened, and I love it so much
And this is the thank you I haven't said yet to him
edit: I can't think of anything different to put in my profile. even though I badly want to update it.
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