rudee

my life is going to be completely different in the next few months... and that scares the crap out of me...

my mom is moving to nevada and taking my dog and cat with her... it will be nice to have my mom off my back, but it also makes me really sad because its always been just me and my mom since i was 4... and i'm going to miss my dog and cat soooo much... i love those little guys... one of these days i'll have to post a picture of my dog Crumpet... hes soooooooo CUTE! i'd keep him, but i know that he'll be better off with my mom... i'll just have to visit a lot... A LOT...

my aunts, uncles and cousins are all moving to nevada too.... except my cousin philip and my cousin christian... this is really hard because my family is EXTREMELY close.... they all want me to go with them, but they know my life is here... school is here... work is here... boyfriend is here... life is here...

my grandparents are moving to arizona... the grandparents from my dads side... they've been talking about it for years, and they're finally doing it... of course, at the same time my other family is moving... this makes me sad because i'm closer with my grandma than anyone else on that side of my family... i don't really fit in with them... shes basically the glue that held that side of my family together... i wonder where people will go for the holidays? i can't imagine they'll all go to arizona...

my dad already lives 3 hours away.... so he'll be my closest parent... yay...

the WORST part is that since everyone is moving away, we have to sell my grandparents house... the house my grandpa designed and built over 60 years ago... everyone else is really upset about it too... but if everyone will be happier when they get out of the bay area then its ok... my grandparents wouldn't mind as long as everyone stays together... well, mostly everyone... the tears are gonna be flowing the day we sell that house...

i'm going from having family surrounding me all in the same town since i was born, to being here with practically no family and living alone... SCARY!

oh well... i need this... if my mom let me, i probably would have stayed with her forever... i'm such a kid...

don't get me wrong... i'm still REALLY EXCITED about moving out on my own... i've been SO whiney this week... damn... sorry about that... i'm usually more pleasant, i swear!

i think this is the longest journal entry i've ever made... huh... perhaps i should refrain from smoking a bowl before making a journal entry... *shrugs*