@rambo @missy
This ones hard for me to answer. There have been many things that should have been the scariest thing to happen to me but for some reason I never get to blind panic. Any time I get in a situation of scary shit, my brain actually slows down time and I actually contemplate my situation and think of my options. I'll give examples.
Me and my friend are crossing a school yard near where I lived. All of a sudden we get surrounded by 30 kids that want to fight us. I was 17 and most of these kids were a year younger than me. Instantly, I was like fuck, this is gonna suck. The fear creeped into me, but I showed absolutely no emotion. I talked to these kids in a calm rational voice. I convinced them it would only be fair if it was a one on one fight between my friend and theirs. And they agreed. I think this was the very first time I realized that talking in a calm voice in these situations actually freaked the other people out. Or if your in a situation with someone else, it actually calms them the fuck down.
Even as a child I would do this. When I was 5 , my parents had relatives visiting from the old country. So you show them around. They took us to this zoo. I remember walking up to where they kept these Walruses. It had a very simple fence with s metal bar going across at 4ft and 2ft. Nothing else. You could just jump into the pit with these things if you want to. So there's this fence and then a drop off of 15ft. For some reason the Walruses were close to the wall of this drop off so I couldn't get a good look at them. I look over and see this kid sitting on top of this fence with his dad holding him. I'm like, that looks about right. I climb the fence and slip. I fall head first right at this Walruses head and its looking straight at me. I don't know if I surprised it or it thought I was lunch. As I'm falling time slowed down and then I stopped. Something had me by my ankle in a vise grip. I get pulled up and it's my uncle. He just barely got me. It was like a movie. I think the fear in these situations pulls my mind into a different direction. Where I don't completely accept the current reality.
It's just weird.
