Age 23 is not far off in the distance. I used to look at that age, and think, well, not necesarily "old" but certainly "older". It was funny because I was on myspace this morning (yes, I'm a myspace drone, no, not for any justifiable reason, either...) and I was looking at someone that was 23. Ok, so, yes, we can ALL lie about age, that's fine, maybe she was being honest but she didn't LOOK 23. In fact, she looked 26, or 27. The friend from the fiasco mentioned in my last journal will be 23 in June. She LOOKS 27.
I guess what I'm getting at here is that I'm not sure one, that I look like I'll be 23 next year, two that I am ready for 23 next year, or three that I will know how to BE 23 next year. When does all of this come together? When do you just KNOW that you are ready to move forward in this thing we call "Becoming an adult". I pay bills, I pay rent, car insurnace, have health benefits, but I just don't feel like I'm there yet. I certainly don't think that I'm rushing the process, hell I still see myself as that timid little girl sitting in the corner reading quietly to herself, never moving her eyes from her book for fear of having to actually talk to someone. Ok, maybe that was exagerrated, because at any moment in time I can turn on the "Social butterfly" mode and go to town.
Oh, and just for the record, I'm not whining, just trying to be reflective. I want you all to understand that I embrace the aging process with open arms, I don't fear the physical attributes of it, I never was vain, I don't think, anyway. I just fret over not knowing if I'm there yet, or how I will know.
I guess what I'm getting at here is that I'm not sure one, that I look like I'll be 23 next year, two that I am ready for 23 next year, or three that I will know how to BE 23 next year. When does all of this come together? When do you just KNOW that you are ready to move forward in this thing we call "Becoming an adult". I pay bills, I pay rent, car insurnace, have health benefits, but I just don't feel like I'm there yet. I certainly don't think that I'm rushing the process, hell I still see myself as that timid little girl sitting in the corner reading quietly to herself, never moving her eyes from her book for fear of having to actually talk to someone. Ok, maybe that was exagerrated, because at any moment in time I can turn on the "Social butterfly" mode and go to town.
Oh, and just for the record, I'm not whining, just trying to be reflective. I want you all to understand that I embrace the aging process with open arms, I don't fear the physical attributes of it, I never was vain, I don't think, anyway. I just fret over not knowing if I'm there yet, or how I will know.
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yeah, i checked out the set. let me just say, i love when girls take pics in the mirror. very hot!
i usually hit baltimore twice a year. if your'e still there i would love to meet up with you. have a few laughs over drinks.