Well, Ruby never found Deloris. So that one is on hold for the moment.
It was a little hard, trying to find someone amongst 2500 other people. Or other nutters I should say.
A crazy night, still taking it all in.
Its trange - people always think of Torture Garden - a fetish night, as being sexual.
For me its not sexual in the slightest. Nothing I see turns me on even vaguely. It was great for research purposes for the business, lots and lots of inspiration, good contacts, nice to make some new friends.
But I am really really longing to find something that... lets say floats my boat a little more?
I feel as sexual as a stone at the moment. You wouldn't think it would you?
You'd probably think that I am getting laid regularly and life is one sumptuous erotic and sensual experience after the other.
Not so.
I cannot remember the last time I felt really really fucking turned on. And that is really beginning to bother me.
You know how people, men especially have this animal urge to fuck and it can be so strong that some times it does even matter who it is... pussy is pussy...
Well I've just lost that for now. If you don't turn my mind on (and that is friggin' HARD to find), then you wont be getting any.
I long to feel senselessly horny, to let that primordial urge take over, give in to it, let go.
But it just aint there.
And some times I wonder, if I was getting laid all the time, if I was sexually satisfied and expressing myself sexually with another individual, would RubyRouge, i.e the business exist?
Its almost as if, because I'm not sexually expressing myself with another person, being a highly sexual person, (which I would consider myself as), I have the need to express myself in other ways.... hence the nature of my business, my urge to go to Fetish and Erotica nights, my naked pics on Suicide Girls.
I feel frightened by the fact that I am so picky and find it near impossible to find some one who really does it for me. Because when I do (and Iwill god dammnit) I will be so excited that I will be utterly at that persons mercy, putting me in a very vulnerable position.
This is all very new to me. Before my last relationship, I was the crazy girl who slept with who ever I happened to feel like sleeping with (which happened rather a lot).
How do you go from having sex that's so intimate, out of love with the same person for years, and then go straight to having a one night stand? I just can't do it. And its made my libido go out the window.
It was a little hard, trying to find someone amongst 2500 other people. Or other nutters I should say.
A crazy night, still taking it all in.
Its trange - people always think of Torture Garden - a fetish night, as being sexual.
For me its not sexual in the slightest. Nothing I see turns me on even vaguely. It was great for research purposes for the business, lots and lots of inspiration, good contacts, nice to make some new friends.
But I am really really longing to find something that... lets say floats my boat a little more?
I feel as sexual as a stone at the moment. You wouldn't think it would you?
You'd probably think that I am getting laid regularly and life is one sumptuous erotic and sensual experience after the other.
Not so.
I cannot remember the last time I felt really really fucking turned on. And that is really beginning to bother me.
You know how people, men especially have this animal urge to fuck and it can be so strong that some times it does even matter who it is... pussy is pussy...
Well I've just lost that for now. If you don't turn my mind on (and that is friggin' HARD to find), then you wont be getting any.
I long to feel senselessly horny, to let that primordial urge take over, give in to it, let go.
But it just aint there.
And some times I wonder, if I was getting laid all the time, if I was sexually satisfied and expressing myself sexually with another individual, would RubyRouge, i.e the business exist?
Its almost as if, because I'm not sexually expressing myself with another person, being a highly sexual person, (which I would consider myself as), I have the need to express myself in other ways.... hence the nature of my business, my urge to go to Fetish and Erotica nights, my naked pics on Suicide Girls.
I feel frightened by the fact that I am so picky and find it near impossible to find some one who really does it for me. Because when I do (and Iwill god dammnit) I will be so excited that I will be utterly at that persons mercy, putting me in a very vulnerable position.
This is all very new to me. Before my last relationship, I was the crazy girl who slept with who ever I happened to feel like sleeping with (which happened rather a lot).
How do you go from having sex that's so intimate, out of love with the same person for years, and then go straight to having a one night stand? I just can't do it. And its made my libido go out the window.
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Then i noticed you have marvelous music taste aswell.
Well done on all of this young lady.
.....yes the tassles! drop me a price and an address to send the material to through my contact tab and I'll sort it out next week