rubyrouge

Sigh. No more la la land for me.

I just spend a blissful week in the mountains including saunas, massages, meditation, great food, steam baths, taking naps every single afternoon, reading and snowboarding. A week of not thinking about real life. It was wonderful. And it also included a rather intimate rendevouz with an x-boyfriend which was rather delicious too. What a turn on... knowing that you have slept with someone in the past but not being able to remember it as it was so long ago. The contrast of simultaneous familiarity and newness. Very yummy.

Now I have to bring myself back to reality which involves being cognizent of the following facts:

1) I have a mega mega mega minus number in my bank account

2) I have to find a part time job

3) Even though I have a degree and a masters, I shall probably end up working in a shitty cafe or office

4) Its pointless and silly dreaming and chucking it all in and dissapearing

5) My website wont be finished for ages.

6) Sitting around and moping wont get me anywhere.

But I think that's what I'll spend the rest of the day doing