rubyparis

When I was in grade six, we had a reading hour during school, where all the kids would find a quiet spot and read their books,,, one day I was reading my book and minding my own business when Ryan(my crush, actually the boy that all the girls had crushes on) had a note passed to me. The note read.. "will you go out with me?" yes or no circle one.
I immediately circled yes and got excited OMG I am going to be Ryans girlfriend I showed the girls closet to me and they got all happy and of course the whole classroom knew what was going on.. So I passed the note back to him and spent the rest of reading hour the happiest I had ever been in my whole sixth grader life.... Recess was after reading hour,, that recess was the most horrifying recess EVER! Ryan had his friends come up to me and tell me it was all a joke he didn't want to be my boyfriend.. I was humiliated I balled for that whole recess I hide and cried...
Now when I think of that,, I wonder.... did he want to be my boyfriend and his friends told him not to?? Or was he just a sick individual that like to hurt little girls??? Was I that awful that he needed to do that to me??

I will never ever know