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Current Song [:] Marty Robbins [:] Honkytonk Man.

I've never seen you look quite so sad
I've never felt me feel quite so bad
And I know we both feel that we have been had
Well I guess they were just not that strong
I lost my woman and you lost your man
And who knows who's right and who's wrong
But I've still got my guitar and I've got a plan
Throw your arms around this honkytonk man

Throw your arms around this honkytonk man
And we'll get through this night the best way we can
It's the best ol' pain killer since hurtin began
Throw your arms around this honkytonk man.

I miss that woman and you miss him too
But there's not a hell of alot we can do
But cling to each other till the hurtin is through
But the hurt can only last just so long
You be my woman and i'll be your man
Even if just for a while
I still got my guitar and I've got a plan
Throw your arms around this honkytonk man

I can't describe how much I love this song. Andrea would probably slit my wrists if she knew I was listening to this song again, but I can't help myself. It is such an honest and pure song. It sums up vulnerability so well and I love how honest it is about the beauty of finding comfort where you can and moving on. I am such a sap, but i think it's romantic.

The last couple of days have been really fun. I realize just how much I have been cutting myself off from other people and it is really making it hard for me to handle social interactions. The more I spend time alone reading and writing, the more I cut myself off. It's hard to let myself relax and have fun and sometimes when I notice myself feeling this way, I jump into to situations that are just great and stressful at the same time. I guess I just need a little time to get comfortable. Hanging out with someone new on friday and saturday has put me in a great mood.


Last night Andrea, Parker, and I watched about seven episodes of My So-called Life and I had so much fun. I never realize how funny that show is and how bitchy Parker and I are when we are in cahoots. We were making Andrea miserable with our constant criticisms of the show. I love it, but there are some things that are just too classic to over look. The three of us were up to six in the morning laughing and listening to country music.



I definitely need to get out more. Next week is finals and then after that two months down south. My plan is to do as much as possible next week before I have to leave.