Tonight's not getting any better, but no worse to so that is something. I realize that I like to say I am a wannabe artist, when I really want to stick up for the artist part. But the whole fact that I worry what other people would say about what I create (mostly that its just a sad attempt) makes me question it all and then I stick to the wannabe part because that is what I feel I become. I dont know Ive always questioned my own writing, even more so now though since Ive started an erotic blog that has erotic short stories. Now that Ive gotten into photography (a field in which it seems that talent doesnt need to be there just the money for the expansive equipment for the whole digital phenomenon, that I just dont have money to even fantasize about) I feel even my passion for it is forced and faked (and that is my own personal issues causing those doubts). Its like having low self-esteem (which I have), but applied to art.
Tonight's not getting any better, but no worse to so that is something. I realize that I like to say I am a wannabe artist, when I really want to stick up for the artist part. But the whole fact that I worry what other people would say about what I create (mostly that its just a sad attempt) makes me question it all and then I stick to the wannabe part because that is what I feel I become. I dont know Ive always questioned my own writing, even more so now though since Ive started an erotic blog that has erotic short stories. Now that Ive gotten into photography (a field in which it seems that talent doesnt need to be there just the money for the expansive equipment for the whole digital phenomenon, that I just dont have money to even fantasize about) I feel even my passion for it is forced and faked (and that is my own personal issues causing those doubts). Its like having low self-esteem (which I have), but applied to art.