AS I LAY ALONE (REDONE)

years upon years
back where the misery started
surrounding and embedding in the brain
hitting like a plague
self-destructive women
their constant complaints
an abundance of empty souls
kept a dream intoxicated
alcohol abused situations
hatred of the emptiness next to me
heated blood overwelming
keeping quiet
head down
mouth shut
tortured souls use me as a pillow
til they learn to sleep again
I STILL LAY BY MYSELF

laying awake
just trying to sleep off this pain
staring at the ceiling in discomfort
arm numbbed craddling this emptiness
trying to escape this darkness
to slip away like shadows
held tight
feeling alone
even in this so called togetherness
just a cold soul
empty, non forgiving to this blackness
a plastered fake smile
hopeing she just goes
not wanting to speak
or lie
having no thrill left
long for solid ground
obtaining only emptiness and disappointment
fixated on a flame
that has no existance
AS I LAY ALONE

freindship for comfort
comfort mistaken for love
love replaced with boredom
all to purchase a thing called lonliness
misery for two
smoking please!
call it love first
then the hatred walks in casualy
pushing everything away
a misery with no bond
trying to keep the voidless comfort, one more night
the warmth entertwined in lies
embraced the shallowness here
AS I LAY ALONE

An oppression put on my soul
mind chained down in blackness
slave to my thought
life disapates from the eyes
blue dulling to grey
flame kindle down to a slow flicker
body and mind go
coldness of mistrust set in
Sleeping with the self destructive
evolving a life of the lonely and bored
AS I LAY ALONE