rp3215

hes really pushing me to the limit... i dont think i even want to be with him anymore.. i mean there had to have been a reason i went to that guys house to begin with... i just dont know what to think right now... he is controlling but i love him and dont mind so much when hes here... its just he's been gone for so long.. i think there was a chance that it could work... but he's pushing me to the edge... i know hes just mad and wants to hurt me as much as i hurt him but now he's saying things like that he cant wait to come home because he cant wait to get drunk and pass out and maybe do some "wife beating" because it will be ok if he hits me when hes drunk because he's drunk and doesnt mean it or know what hes doing... he tells me horrible horrible things... but he wants to make it work i just have to understand i really hurt him and he may say mean things to me... an di should have to deal with it... because no matter what he says it wont make me feel as bad as i made him feel...