roxymonoxcide

Ever feel like you are living a double life. I usually think it's fun to live like I'm two different people..and for the most part I can be two different people. Some people know one side of me and some know the other side...and all the while I have to keep the balance and make sure one side doesn't find out the other sides secrets. It's all catching up to me recently. I don't know if I like parts of who I am. I can be very two faced at times. I know that a lot of people are like that but I always thought that I wasn't. I don't know why this is all eating me alive right now. Maybe it's that time of the month...maybe it's the lack of BC in my system. Which I know has taken it's toll at least a little. I just feel confused and I dont' feel that I am being fair to people I think I consider friends or really to myself.

Furthermore, I want things to happen in my life without having to work for them. I am totally lazy. I wish I wasn't. Sigh, now I'm completely depressed. I'm gonna watch my so-called life and cry now.