roxymonoxcide

I sorta feel like i've been in a funk but I know it's just because it's that time for me and my birthdays are starting to get me down. I know I'm not old or whatever but I feel it sometimes. People who meet me for the first time think that I am older than I am..usually not from how I look but rather how I behave. I have a lot of responsibility and I am not a gal who goes to parties every night and come home falling down drunk. Not that there is anything wrong with that. I guess I just figured out earlier than most what I wanted to do with my life. I still get out, maybe not as much as I would like sometimes, but I have to make sure that I can function the next morning. I had this revelation today while driving around town..
I was in the car with the baby and my friend and she asked me where a particular store was and I answered almost without thinking. It hit me that I know this town pretty well now. And that lead to thinking about being out on my own and how I did it by myself. Also the fact that I moved to a big scary city..and never looked back. It scares me when I see how much I have grown up. Having one of those out of body experiences where you evauate your life...
Its not bad at all. it's just that time of the month.