roxy

I got 50 responses to my last journal. You guys are amazing. I sincerely thank every one of you for all of the supportive comments. I know I haven't replied to any of you, and it might seem like I don't care, but I read every last comment, and they all made me smile. It helps in this time of pain to know that people care about me.

I'm still living in hell. The pain is almost to the point where I'm numb. My whole body aches, and my heart is shattered. I cry a lot. And sometimes I just sit glassy eyed... because I can't cry anymore.

I've been trying to keep busy with friends, and to everyone who's kept me in mind and given me a call to just hang out -- it's meant more to me than you can know. So much love goes out to those friends who have been trying to keep me upbeat.

I will survive. I'll get through this. But god damn, this is one of the worse points of my life.