roxy

Thanks for everyone's kind words regarding my grandmother's passing. Some of them really meant a lot, even if I didn't reply.

I'm doing a little better. But when I actually put it in the front of my mind and think about it, I start to cry, so I have to shove the thought away. Eventually I'll have to really face it. But I don't want to, it's just so FUCKING SAD.

Her funeral is today. And I'm not there. I really hate that. I would give anything to be there for her and my family. *sigh*

Thanksgiving for my family will be a sad one. I can't be there for that either But every Thanksgiving, my grandma makes this huge awesome meal, and we have the entire family over for food and talking and chatting and general merriment. It's been that way for years, since I was a little kid. I remember being super young and living in Florida, and getting on a train to Ohio for my grandma's Thanksgiving. *sigh*

Thanks to all of my real, true friends who have been there for me. Those of you who have listened, let me cry on your shoulder, and gotten me away from my apartment, even for lunch or movie watching. You guys mean the world to me.

I can't believe she's gone. God DAMN it's so sad. I'm almost ANGRY. She shouldn't be gone yet.