I had an interesting weekend. An interesting mixture of really good and pretty bad. So I guess my weekend was -- ok?
I kinda started smoking again. I've been extremely stressed lately, and the only reason I didn't cave in was because Tony and I made a pact, an agreement, we had a trust between us. Yesterday I showed up at his place unexpectedly and caught him smoking.
So I decided fuck it, and smoked one with him.
Then today I actually bought a pack -- thinking I'd smoke this pack and then be done for good. But after having two cigarettes this morning, I don't find it enjoyable anymore. The smell is more repulsive to me than ever, I can feel my lungs shriveling and crying, and it makes my stomach upset. I guess that's a good thing -- I'm not going to smoke. It's disgusting.
What else? Oh yeah -- I've love to go to Portland next weekend, but I have no vehicle and no ride -- anyone wanna help a girl out?
I kinda started smoking again. I've been extremely stressed lately, and the only reason I didn't cave in was because Tony and I made a pact, an agreement, we had a trust between us. Yesterday I showed up at his place unexpectedly and caught him smoking.
So I decided fuck it, and smoked one with him.
Then today I actually bought a pack -- thinking I'd smoke this pack and then be done for good. But after having two cigarettes this morning, I don't find it enjoyable anymore. The smell is more repulsive to me than ever, I can feel my lungs shriveling and crying, and it makes my stomach upset. I guess that's a good thing -- I'm not going to smoke. It's disgusting.
What else? Oh yeah -- I've love to go to Portland next weekend, but I have no vehicle and no ride -- anyone wanna help a girl out?
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I did enjoy my time in Seattle (Redmond actually.) I truly enjoy the NW, I miss the mountains and the microbreweries rock!
I am glad you have made a decision about the smoking. Good luck! My friends and dad have tried to quit many times and I empathize with how hard it can be. Keep us updated.