i was rlly into derby. like, derby, derby, derby, work, work, sleep, derby -into it. but lately things have started to change. i mean, my long standing beef with one of the predominant girls (read past blog for more details, suffice to say i nailed her ex under HIS false pretexts) was wearing on me but i felt like we were getting over it. i mean, he was allowed to start showing up to derby functions again. she actually talked to me during practice. business stuff only, but we were talking. BUT then the girls started reorganizing the league, blah, blah, blah, and suddenly i am expected to go from 6-10 hours a week of derby-time to more. the thought along made me exhausted. not to mention i'm going on my 7th month of a 50+ hr work week. all i want to do is finishing reading my Brothers Karamazov novel, blog, actually use my gym membership, and study for the GREs. Sure, it would be nice to fit the derbs in. but i have been rlly focusing on ridding my life of the excess. i mean, excess clothes, shitty ppl, eating too much, the works. and right now, the ppl in derby have been wearing me thin. so. i quit.
as of yesterday. actually.
it all started with a spine injury. i haven't been well enough to skate for about 2 weeks, and what little free time that i have gotten has been glorious. now it's just working on getting stuff done in that spare time.
i tried to leave it on good terms and to remain open-ended just in case i come back to the idea of skating. don't get me wrong, those ppl were like my family. but sort of like an 18 yr old who is just 'over it' so am i. i need to move out of the drama-rama and into my self-controlled life a bit more.
so here i am. tomorrow i get to be the 'score whore' at the game in town. and after that. i get to decide IF i want to go to the after party. as far as i'm concerned, after that, i'm a free woman.
i rlly feel like hermiting again. when i first moved to p.a. i did my best to avoid ppl. that inclination worries me a bit. but at the same time, I NEED to get my learn on so i can do this whole grad school thing sooner rather than later.
so that's an update. feell free to comment. or not.
to those of you who are close to me, i feel immense love for you. know that.
<3
as of yesterday. actually.
it all started with a spine injury. i haven't been well enough to skate for about 2 weeks, and what little free time that i have gotten has been glorious. now it's just working on getting stuff done in that spare time.
i tried to leave it on good terms and to remain open-ended just in case i come back to the idea of skating. don't get me wrong, those ppl were like my family. but sort of like an 18 yr old who is just 'over it' so am i. i need to move out of the drama-rama and into my self-controlled life a bit more.
so here i am. tomorrow i get to be the 'score whore' at the game in town. and after that. i get to decide IF i want to go to the after party. as far as i'm concerned, after that, i'm a free woman.
i rlly feel like hermiting again. when i first moved to p.a. i did my best to avoid ppl. that inclination worries me a bit. but at the same time, I NEED to get my learn on so i can do this whole grad school thing sooner rather than later.
so that's an update. feell free to comment. or not.
to those of you who are close to me, i feel immense love for you. know that.
<3
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Sometimes having too much going at once may scatter your focus or force.
What we choose to focus on and the meaning we assign to said focus is paramount to what kind of lives we enjoy.
I wish you all the best with your studies