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yuck. one of my best friends may or may not have had a misgarriage last night. she was in the ER for hours and didn't find out anything. they couldn't find a heartbeat, but thats not uncommon at 6 weeks. is it wrong for me to think that i hope she did? i mean, when you can barely feed the one kid you have, having another one is not such a fucking good idea.

shitty morning. got up late, hit my room mates car trying to get to work on time cause i was trying to light my cigarette. i forgot about it till i went back home. and now i feel sick about it. i havn't seen the damage. i wish i could hide. had a migrane from hell from yesterday (i think it had something to do with my excessive cheese intake). still hasn't quite gone away.

i have to go to crystals house and spend time with her because shes alone with the baby and bleeding profusely (can't spell that one) i need to take a shower and get work stench off of me. and do some work in my big notebook.
clean out and wash my car, buy cigarettes.....Garrett and i were supposed to go to an Anomaly event last night but we both felt like shit so stayed in bed and watched Dogeball and ate pizza instead. i was happy just being by his side. i keep on wondering if i make him as happy as he makes me. its been going through my head all day.

work sucks. so fucking bored with it. i need to go to school so i can find something that i actually fucking enjoy doing every day. anyways, i told crystal i was just gonna take a quick shower and be right over. i failed to mention that i would probably spend a good 20 - 30 minutes on the computer before that so i should be going now.
k, bye.

garrrrr