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rowan

Koh Samui, Thailand

SG Since 2005

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Thursday Jul 14, 2005

Jul 14, 2005
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Hello folks.

Life has been crazy lately, so I am sorry I haven't been around. I am going through one of the hardest times I have ever had and making time for SG has been difficult.

School has been going okay. My english teacher means well, but he ends up jabbering on about nothing and leaves little time to talk about the actual class. Math, on the other hand, is one of those that you work on a computer at your own pace. It's nice because I don't have to deal with an instructor unless I am taking a test. All in all it's about the most boring quarter I have had yet.

My parents are going through a nasty divorce, and they seem to want to take everyone down with them. Because they act like helping me out with insurance n' such while I am in school is such a pain in the ass, I am not going to be going to school next quarter. My money that I get from the real estate company I am a partner in won't be there anymore (I was partners with my parents, so you see why the company is dissolving). I *should* have enough at the end to pay off my car, but I don't know how much more I will have.

So as of 2 months from now, I will have no income.

Fun.

As some of you may know, I have depression, agoraphobia, and general anxiety disorder. This basically means that unless I am with a *safe person* I don't leave the house. I go to school, but that 1-2 hours a day is a struggle. I get from one place to another okay, but I have such a problem in big crowds or with people I don't know that working on any sort of regular basis is taxing. I go to school for 2 hours and come home, barring doctor's appointments and the like.

I applied for disability about a month ago, but it takes 4 months to get an answer and my psychiatrist and doctors say almost no one gets it on their first application. They have all told me that trying to hold down a job would be extremely unhealthy for me right now and I honestly don't see how I can do it either.

So here is my situation.

End of Aug- No more $
End of October - Answer (probably no) from SS

This means that working is my only option.

If I work, I will not get Disability because no matter how much I struggle through it, I am working.

It doesn't matter that I have no choice.



It aint easy being green. ♥

xoxo
~Ro

bok For those with friend requests...

SPOILERS! (Click to view)
As much as I love new friends, I never approve a request unless we have chatted a bit. I am not saying that I don't want to be friends, but I do like to get to know you a bit before I add you. The people on my list are people that I love dearly. I talk with them as often as I can, and they do the same for me. I am always hurt when I add someone and then never hear from them again. So please, do not request a friendship unless we have chatted a bit. Let's exchange comments/posts/e-mails. Tell me about yourself.

Anything. smile

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miketheevil1:
kiss
Jul 20, 2005
ansia:
Wow ... So sorry to hear that you're having such a rough time. Stay strong though !! I am very familiar with the debilitating bitch that is anxiety. I hope things start to improve soon.
Jul 20, 2005

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