route187

It's really weird when something happens to you that puts your friends in a position to do something. You always want them to have your back no matter what, but it always seems like nobody ever knows what to do. Most of the time they just freeze up and not react to anything that is going on. I used to be a culprit of that myself until i was once confronted about my cowardness. But now my expectations are high and i don't know how to deal with people who can't stand up for me. They say i'm so important to them but they have no backbone. It's like they show their true colors when they coward out... but i don't want to give up on them but feel that they aren't a true friend.

side note: people on the internet are so much more real than in real life... maybe it's just me, but i like people online so much better