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I really dont have that much to write about. I haven't really been doing much of anything. In a way I guess I have kinda been having a lil pity party with myself, cause nothing has changed or gotten better. Ive been very depressed and lonely....even when Im in a room with 10 people.

Thanksgiving was ok. Didn't really eat that much. I was doing pills so I didnt have much of an appetite. I did enjoy my break from school though. Got to spend some time with my old friends that I grew up with. I actually started smoking pot again too! Ive never really been one to really like the shit cause all it does is put me to sleep and make me eat odd things, but it's actually mellowed me out and made the days easier to handle so what the fuck, right?

Today is my sisters 17th birthday, and tomorrow is my best friends birthday. So I'll probably be getting trashed tomorrow. Im ready for a break. Its been a hard week starting back to school after a vacation and everything. Im ready for the fucking semester to end. Im ready for the holidays and my 21st birthday. Im hoping the holidays will bring mathis back. I miss em soooooooooooo much. How could any father handle not getting to see his baby on her first x-mas?! Anyhewt, I figured it will either heal me or kill me. Heres some recent pics ive taken of Aurora....