Welp, I am officially heart sick again. I was doing fine until HE came over last Sunday night. (He being the father of my child). I probably shouldn\'t have let him, but I thought I could handle it. Things went great though. We laughed and flirted and even snuggled some. I thought that maybe he was considering coming back home. Well all those feelings resurfaced again and the past few days have been hell. I texted messaged him the next day and he didnt even reply. I haven\'t heard from him since. It broke my heart into even smaller pieces. So I just emailed him and told him that I dont think it\'s a good idea that he came over anymore. Not unless he plans on coming back home. I hope that is the right thing to do, and I hope my baby will someday understand why I made that decision and not hold it against me. Its her daddy\'s fault that she doesnt get to see him, not mine. I hope she sees that. Last night I was searching through myspace and I found a picture of him with his arms around another girl.....and not a very attractive one to say the least. Actually I think she\'s one of his ex\'s. But that doesn\'t have to mean anything does it? Im such a jealous bitch. I want my man back and I feel powerless. I feel like Ive wasted 5 years of my life. Well I shouldnt say that, because at least I got a beautiful lil girl out of him. God damnit I hate love and what it does to people. Fuck penis! 
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I'm sure your daughter will understand when she's older. These situations can be very difficult and painful, but in the long run you need to make sure you're happy first so you can give your daughter the life she deserves.