The newness of life.
I would love a life, if only I could have the time for that.
Let's see. So much internal searching lately. I'm tring so hard to find this person I used to be, well... at least the person I always thought I was. I'm not sure I don't want to move anymore. I think again it would be good. I'd like to move and go to school. Just not be here. I wish, for so many things to live experience. I only have some small bills. I think it's something that I could do.... I'm just... not sure. I have so much thinking I sould be doing. So much... of everything I should be doing, creating, reading, saving, discussing... so much...
::sigh::
I feel like I'm about to take a huge leep, and if I fall, I'll be stuck forever where I land with nothing else but the day to day things one can do.
I've swirled myself into confusion again.
I would love a life, if only I could have the time for that.
Let's see. So much internal searching lately. I'm tring so hard to find this person I used to be, well... at least the person I always thought I was. I'm not sure I don't want to move anymore. I think again it would be good. I'd like to move and go to school. Just not be here. I wish, for so many things to live experience. I only have some small bills. I think it's something that I could do.... I'm just... not sure. I have so much thinking I sould be doing. So much... of everything I should be doing, creating, reading, saving, discussing... so much...
::sigh::
I feel like I'm about to take a huge leep, and if I fall, I'll be stuck forever where I land with nothing else but the day to day things one can do.
I've swirled myself into confusion again.
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godlessnerd:
the only people who are stuck are the people who are dead... otherwise, you can always crawl back out of something, if you get yourself into a mess, depends how much will-power you have. I used to try to be like the person I was a couple of years ago, then I came to the conclusion that there is no point, everyone evolves wether you like it or not, you just need to adapt to the new things that you are doing. Wanting to be something you were can be devistating, because nothing is ever the same... anywho, i don't know where I'm going with this, just um, wanted to say hi 
black_tar_heroin:
have you read Nick Blinko's Primal Screamer..... it is good, but i love rudimentary peni