rottensockets

So I've actually been getting very excited about moving. Like most in my town have, I'm moving to Portland. I wasn't too sure about it, leaving friends and all.... but, as this valley heats up.... I'm getting very ready for a change of pace. It makes me sad, because I used to be very spontaneous, do whatever I thought in the moment. I think things though now... I sit on things for a while. This time around I'm going to try not to care; this is something I think I truly need... a difference, just to fuck with myself. Even if things fall apart I can always come home with my tail between my legs. Suffering though something tough gives even the smallest things meaning so despite what happens, this can only be good. I'm getting too close to solving things around here, my own personal challenges will be up, but with other things I'm just ready to give up. Give up and call it laziness like everything else to hide the motivations. New challenges and people, even if for only a little while will be fun.
I hate the California sunshine.