i don't have anything to say at all.
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holden_caulfield:
Oh yeah, tough guy? 
chris_sick:
where'd you go?
Been thinking about you, your records are here,
your eyes are on my wall, your teeth are over there.
But I'm still no-one, and you're now a star,
what do you care?
Been thinking about you, and there's no rest,
shit I still love you, still see you in bed.
But I'm playing with myself, and what do you care
when the other men are...
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starguitar:
Thanks very kind of you to say!
What's up is me grading (mostly awful) papers. So I'm valuing the careful art of fair analysis and critical discourse right now, more than I may at other times hehe...
What's up there?
What's up is me grading (mostly awful) papers. So I'm valuing the careful art of fair analysis and critical discourse right now, more than I may at other times hehe...
What's up there?
all we are is dust in the wind.
it's a good thing this journal feature is here. it is so much easier for me to spill my guts to the (mostly) anonymous denizens of the intraweb than to actually talk to another human face to face. thank god for pixels...
why do i keep beating myself up? what sort of sick perversion makes me such a glutton for punishment? perhaps there are some...
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why do i keep beating myself up? what sort of sick perversion makes me such a glutton for punishment? perhaps there are some...
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sarcasticmenace:
I can't say that I understand what you are going through right now. All I can say is that it must be necessary, or you wouldn't being experiencing it. I hope you are able to find some level of peace with yourself.
ponette:
Grief reveals all sorts of things about a person. Its the ultimate shake down. You, lying there on the couch listening to unbearable rain - that is what's left. And I suspect you will find yourself to be more resilient than you feel.
At my worst, I remember a feeling of disbelief that I was still alive. I didn't much care why I was alive as much as I was distracted my the irony that after all the pain I felt, my heart hadn't stopped beating. That itself is amazing and some sort of miracle that can't be ignored.
You're not done yet.
At my worst, I remember a feeling of disbelief that I was still alive. I didn't much care why I was alive as much as I was distracted my the irony that after all the pain I felt, my heart hadn't stopped beating. That itself is amazing and some sort of miracle that can't be ignored.
You're not done yet.
whoa!!!!
nelly.
nelly.
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hexe_____:
as in the rapper or did a horse just walk into your living room? 
holden_caulfield:
whoa!!!!
nelly.
Are you watching college football or something? 
i am coming to the realization that the best thing i had going for me in recent years is gone now. i can only look back on it and remember fondly what it was. i think the whole reason i've been depressed lately is because with that nostalgia comes pangs of guilt and regret.
many, many people more eloquent than i have written about love...
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many, many people more eloquent than i have written about love...
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scopitone6248:
Fuck.
At least you've realized what youve done and what youve lost. Id be concerned and irritated if you updated with a big accusatory/blame shifting update.
For what its worth and from someone who has been there himself, Im sorry.
At least you've realized what youve done and what youve lost. Id be concerned and irritated if you updated with a big accusatory/blame shifting update.
For what its worth and from someone who has been there himself, Im sorry.
mk700c:
The situation is hard, but it seems to have done well by you.
also, way to use "denegrated."
also, way to use "denegrated."
i'm not leaving, i just needed a break.
i will still be lurking throughout the boards, waiting for my moment to pounce.
if you're lucky enough to be in a group that i belong to, then you're probably more apt to hear from me.
hope everyone is well.
i will still be lurking throughout the boards, waiting for my moment to pounce.
if you're lucky enough to be in a group that i belong to, then you're probably more apt to hear from me.
hope everyone is well.
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leola76:
Phew! (wipes sweat from forehead) 
so.
there it is.
thanks so much for all the support.
there it is.
thanks so much for all the support.
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leola76:
Hey now, you're not leaving are you?
kolic:
Sounds like you're going my way, the way of the dodo... 
all things must pass.
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chris_sick:
where you been?
chelsea:
yes, RAGE RAGE
what do you do when you seal your own fate?
what penance do you pay when you crucified yourself?
there's no reason for me to be this unhinged. i did everything that's happening to me. good and bad. i fucked it up and pretended it was the thing to do.
what do you do when you do it to yourself?
i paint.
i pretend.
i...
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what penance do you pay when you crucified yourself?
there's no reason for me to be this unhinged. i did everything that's happening to me. good and bad. i fucked it up and pretended it was the thing to do.
what do you do when you do it to yourself?
i paint.
i pretend.
i...
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isadore:
Hey, I know where you're coming from. It sucks horribly!!! I'm on AIM now too, if ya wanna chat. (Zyk0 Biatch) 
ok, i'm gonna be off here for a while cuz i don't think it's doing anything for me. i might stop in occasionally to check in on the score, but i want to take a break.
c-ya.
c-ya.
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holden_caulfield:
Please come back. We miss you.