ah my journal of the new year 
i hope every one had a good christmas and new years. mine was so so christmas i was crying for a while boxing day i ended up in hosptile for two days new years i didnt pull at all
ah well i found out i have like two weeks of holidays to take in work so thats not too bad i guess. Also might have a trip to Dublin planned soon so that could also be fun as its been a while since i was down in Dublin.
had a very weird dream last night where i was out and about and lots of people were there i knew but for the odd reason my ex gf was there her bro mum and her bros gf dont ask why. anywhos then i left and said i was getting looks from my ex's mum who then said she was doing it for how i treated her daughter and that she hated me for it. i said i hated myself for the way i treated her and then when i went to say sorry she called everyone over to hear what i had to say and then she said anyway i like chris (my ex's now bf) better i woke up at that point rather scared trying to work out what it was all about didnt want to go back to sleep after it either so i sent the ex a txt telling her about it.
So all day ive been trying to work this out and also work out why i cant stop thinking of my exgf it really sucks to have this on your mind.
i hope every one had a good christmas and new years. mine was so so christmas i was crying for a while boxing day i ended up in hosptile for two days new years i didnt pull at all
ah well i found out i have like two weeks of holidays to take in work so thats not too bad i guess. Also might have a trip to Dublin planned soon so that could also be fun as its been a while since i was down in Dublin.
had a very weird dream last night where i was out and about and lots of people were there i knew but for the odd reason my ex gf was there her bro mum and her bros gf dont ask why. anywhos then i left and said i was getting looks from my ex's mum who then said she was doing it for how i treated her daughter and that she hated me for it. i said i hated myself for the way i treated her and then when i went to say sorry she called everyone over to hear what i had to say and then she said anyway i like chris (my ex's now bf) better i woke up at that point rather scared trying to work out what it was all about didnt want to go back to sleep after it either so i sent the ex a txt telling her about it.
So all day ive been trying to work this out and also work out why i cant stop thinking of my exgf it really sucks to have this on your mind.
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and I hate it when ex's are at the front of your head....I have one thats constantly in my dreams...and I wake up and am confused like...I just wish he would get out of my head...