rosesarered

Soooo.. This weekend: I had fun and it sucked... In that order.
Friday, my buddy from OHIO came up and fun was had by both parties... But he didn't kiss and tell, so neither will I. But we had fun and he's a lot of fun to be around.

An ex-boyfriend came into work today. The situation with us: We broke up mostly mutually because I was into another guy after being neglected for his pursuit in music. Later, I found out he did not like how forward I was with sex and stuff (which is understandable) I dated him when I was still in high school. We've talked on and off and went to lunch a couple times since we broke up (About two years ago.) He e-mailed me about two weeks ago, saying how he's been meaning to call me and all that and he's sorry that he hasn't. But he never called? So I called him and we talked for a few minutes and he asked if I still work at PBread (I do.) and said that he never sees me there and I told him that I'm there on sunday mornings. So he came in and I hooked him up with a chai tea. And he said that he's tried calling me but my phone doesn't work? (No one else has this problem when calling me?)
I am overcome I totally want to make out with him hardcore. Something comforting about exes?

I don't have any friends.
I am in such a bummer mood.
Please don't let me depress you.

Adam- the ex- came over the other night because my mom got drunk and she's not supposed to drink and my dad and her got in a huge fight and he left and I cried so I called adam because I needed a boy to hug me and hold me and he was the only one that could come over and so I had him come over.
And we talked.. and there is still so much fucking chemistry between us and it's like we never even broke up.
But he is not mine anymore...
And I want to cry about it.
ARG!

I am incredibly depressing and I hate my life.
Girls are way to emotional. I wish I were a boy.
Peace out all.