So I suppose it is time to put up a real journal entry. Lots of things have happened since I was last here. I've moved 3 times. First back to Illinois to help out when the family farm was in trouble. Then back to St. Louis for a while. Trying to escape from some of my past and hoping to rediscover other parts of it. Failed on both counts but learned a bit about myself. Eventually moved back to Minneapolis again. I was coming up here every weekend to check on my business and the programs I started anyway so it just makes more sense to live here. One of my girls will graduate from high school this year and if things go as planned will probably attend a first tier university next year. I couldn't be more proud of her if she were my own daughter. Working with these girls is the best thing I have ever done. I am thankful for them every day. They have changed my world.
I was also engaged for a while. To a guy named Clint. Named after some actor I hear. The sweetest small town guy a girl could ever hope to meet. I probably could have been happy with him but I think in the long run he wouldn't have been happy with me. He would never adapt to city life and I am just not a small town girl anymore. So I ended things abruptly. In hindsight I didn't handle it the right way at all, but eventually I was able to convince him it was for the best. Miraculously we are still friends. That's a rare break up result for me. I also reunited with Yusuf for a while. That was sweet but eventually he went back to Japan and I just can't do the long distance thing anymore. So here I am back in the same town as the love of my life, dating other people but always comparing them to him. Hoping some day we can be together again but no longer leaving my life on hold. If it happens it happens. Either way my life is incredibly satisfying these days. Hope all of you are well.
