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Just a few more days left...

I wrote a super long blog with a super long rant inside of it that I decided I didn't need to post anymore. So I'll try to get that out in a day or two before time runs out.

I just had one thing to say that was on my mind, generally speaking.



You don't know who you are, or who anybody is, until you can see your own behavior when under duress.

What you do and what choices you make when things are really bad are what really define you. It's real easy to find people who are nice when things are fun. But later when the pressure is really on, or you're emotional, or even bored, or faced with a lot of choices...who you choose and what you choose to do is what really makes you. I know myself very well because I've been "fortunate" enough to experience some very "interesting" times and had other people tell me about what they saw from me. I know who I am.

So who are you?




Well, I'll be gone soon. I need to get away from SG because it simply reminds me too much of a situation and someone in it that I want to forget. It may take months, it may take years...I want to not only move on with my life but I want to re-find the kickass guy that I know I can be as I'll need him to accomplish anything worthwhile in the next few years. I don't have much relatively healthy time left in body, from my "youth." I had this really silly dream of finding someone to complete me and perhaps be my muse in all of my future endeavors but I need to just face it. When it's late at night or when things need to be done, I was always alone all along.

But it's nice this time around to have a bit more experience and a few certain key friends along the way. You all played such an important role, letting me know where I really was before I slid too low. Thank you, you know who you are.

- R
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