I actually checked my account online thinking that work must have skipped my pay..
Then I saw that work had paid me the day after this transaction at an ATM in Springwood. I knew I hadn't gone to Springwood, nor had I withdrawn $550.. plus when the transaction took place, I was at work in the Valley.
Then it sunk in and I realised they'd pretty much taken everything that was left in my account at the time, approximately a day after using a local ATM.
The ATM is attached to a branch, so they'll inform the branch and see if anyone else has been ripped off.
Thanks for the good thoughts from those who commented on my last post.
I feel 200% better today. Partially, I think, because I got a lot off my chest in that post, also partly because I got out and went a few rounds with the world today (it's amazing how much just getting active can improve your frame of mind), and partly because I'm so... Read More
don't forget, uni is finishing this year (I believe?) and also probably a lot of things in your life are wrapping up.
So what else? You've defined yourself as the struggling artist/student/poverty driven edge dweller, and soon your going to have to come to a point where you re-join a lot of society and have to become an "adult" as such.
and in such you are probably terrified of loosing your identity, what is scott without study? It's make or break, you actually have to write this book, or succeed with what you have been aiming for all along. If not, it seems like everything you have done so far is for nothing.
The only thing you can do is realise you have equipped yourself for a multitude of situations, and understand that sometimes embracing what has been your antithesis for a long time may not be as bad as you think.
it is only through change we grow, and what are you afraid of? That you won't be cool, interesting, guarded - what that you'll just turn out to be another person in their mid-30's who hasn't really gotten anywhere and you can't hide behind your guise any more?
Sorry, that's a little straight to the point, but in saying that I believe you are more than ready for the next transition in your life, and if that includes setting higher goals and taking active, forward steps to what you want and understanding and accepting them if that's not going to be where your going, then that's a hell of a lot more positive that a continual deferment of responsibility of self.
Sorry if I'm totally off the mark
If not, forgive me and my red wine and dodgy psychoanalysis.
Speachless, and at 5:55am, I just don't know how to make the words come out. I can't seem to offer much more than a friendly ear should you want to chat, and big-fuck-off-huge hugs when I see you again, which will be soon. Just not as soon as we'd both like. I've a few trips planned to come home over the next few months, I'm counting on a pancake date from you, now you've a very big grown up persons job starting!
Please don't fall or tear yourself apart. Easier said than done, but yeah, I like all of you in the one piece.
I logged into my bank account to see if I'd received my government stimulus payment (which I hadn't) and noticed a transfer for a savings plan that I didn't think was still active. I followed the cash and realised I've been saving $100 a fortnight for the last five months or so without noticing (don't ask me how I didn't notice... Read More
The 'up' is that I got offered a job writing for Red Hat Enterprise Linux yesterday. I start in a month doing a flexible part-time week to work around my classes and I'm on a salary that, based on the hours, is comparable to what I was on when I was working in government. I'm... Read More
Right now, right at this very second, I'm thinking I've missed the point.
Or perhaps saying that I've forgotten the joke that used to seem so obvious to me would be a better way to put it.
I'm checking my email every five seconds waiting to be told I got that office job. I'm stressing out about the piece of shit car I just scored... Read More
"Right at this moment the idea of shacking up with my stoner ex-girlfriend in some crusty hovel in the suburbs, working part-time and living to do nothing more than get stoned, watch pirated TV, listen to loud music, write for the pure unadulterated love of expression and fuck like yard-dogs, is REALLY fucking attractive."
Im not going to lie. A conversation with me is completely the same.... I jump from one topic to the next and talk really fast when I am excited. I have no inside voice so I am a bit loud and yeah I say some pretty random things. Hahahah
Then I saw that work had paid me the day after this transaction at an ATM in Springwood. I knew I hadn't gone to Springwood, nor had I withdrawn $550.. plus when the transaction took place, I was at work in the Valley.
Then it sunk in and I realised they'd pretty much taken everything that was left in my account at the time, approximately a day after using a local ATM.
The ATM is attached to a branch, so they'll inform the branch and see if anyone else has been ripped off.
I"m so pissed off