Confession: I'm kinda looking forward to moving back to my Mum's place.
The rent will be cheap and the space I'll be occupying is bigger than the entire apartment I'm in right now. I'll have tasty and nutritious meals prepared for me every evening. I'm hoping to use the time I'm there to acquire things I've never felt the desire to own before, like a TV, a Playstation and a car. This new desire for ownership worries me a little.
I want these things so I can comfortably outfit a place for myself and I've never really had the urge to 'nest' before. I've always just been happy to exist how and where I can, making do with or without whatever circumstances provide or take away as life unfolds. I've never wanted to have things before.
I'm afraid that this nesting urge is the forerunner of other unwanted compulsions like putting down roots, building a relationship and getting a real grown-up job. I've always prided myself on not needing or wanting the 'standard' lifestyle.
Dear God, please don't let me go down that road.
The rent will be cheap and the space I'll be occupying is bigger than the entire apartment I'm in right now. I'll have tasty and nutritious meals prepared for me every evening. I'm hoping to use the time I'm there to acquire things I've never felt the desire to own before, like a TV, a Playstation and a car. This new desire for ownership worries me a little.
I want these things so I can comfortably outfit a place for myself and I've never really had the urge to 'nest' before. I've always just been happy to exist how and where I can, making do with or without whatever circumstances provide or take away as life unfolds. I've never wanted to have things before.
I'm afraid that this nesting urge is the forerunner of other unwanted compulsions like putting down roots, building a relationship and getting a real grown-up job. I've always prided myself on not needing or wanting the 'standard' lifestyle.
Dear God, please don't let me go down that road.
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There is great freedom in self responsibility, and if being at your Mum's will give you that grounding for you to move to the next thing, then it's all good.
I want these things so I can comfortably outfit a place for myself and I've never really had the urge to 'nest' before. I've always just been happy to exist how and where I can, making do with or without whatever circumstances provide or take away as life unfolds. I've never wanted to have things before.
I really feel you on this para especially, because I've spent the last 18 months getting rid of things, and trying to resist roots or responsibility or future plans. But I think I've grown up in the last little while and I'm beginning to see how my decisions and how I structure my life in order to achieve my own version of freedom is up to me.