It's about time I put up a blog post about the current happenings and imminent changes in my life.
Warning: The spoiler below hides a long and self-indulgent tract of unburdening waffle.
Warning: The spoiler below hides a long and self-indulgent tract of unburdening waffle.
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So the change I mentioned in a recent post is upon me with a vengeance.
The woman I'm house-sitting for is arriving back in Brisbane on Saturday. That means I need to find a new place to live. The way I've phrased this makes it sound like it's been sprung on me out of the blue but, while she is coming back sooner than expected, I've been kept in the loop about her plans and I've known this was coming for a few weeks.
Unfortunately I had to leave the rental premises I was living in prior to this house-sitting gig. Which means I don't have a 'home' to go back to. And, as we've just come out of the Xmas season (wherein, as a casual, I don't get paid) and I just bought myself a new netbook computer, I'm flat broke so I can't afford to pony up bond and rent in advance for a new place. So it looks like I'm going back to Mum's.
I know it sounds like I'm being quite negative about having to go home, but I'm not, not really. I know that in a lot of ways it will be good for me, even if it's only for a little while. I'm a little disappointed though, because I was hoping to get myself through my degree without having to resort to this sort of measure. I'm also deeply in love with the part of Brisbane I'm living in right now and the lifestyle it offers. I'm sad to be giving that up. I can always say I'm going to come back, but I know how life sweeps you along sometimes and I'm afraid that, once I leave, I won't get to come back. But I guess I'm the only one who can decide that.
On the plus side, I'm getting a car. Finally. An old girlfriend is moving to Canberra and is giving me her car; the car we bought as a couple so many years ago. It's even already in my name (of course, it was never actually taken out of my name but that's beside the point). It's actually quite fortuitous as I have no idea how I'd survive out in the burbs (what with work and Uni) without a car.
On the not-so plus side is the fact that I'm thinking a lot about my most recent ex lately. She's a great girl and I miss her at times. But I resist calling her as I've dicked her around and unintentionally played with her emotions too much already. I wasn't ready for a relationship when we met. I thought I was, so I pursued her, but once I had her, I realised I wasn't. So I broke it off. But I've always felt a bond and a connection to her, and found her very attractive. I like having her around, and I like to think Im good for her too, but I think that unless I'm very careful, I start giving her the wrong signals and leading her on, although I don't mean to. And she's going through some shit in her life right now. I think it's best if I just stay away from her. We haven't spoken in months. Yeah, I miss her.
Ive had it up to my eye teeth with my job. Im currently in a factory (it landed in my lap right when I needed work in a hurry) but its definitely not where I belong. Ive tolerated it for two years now, but I think that now, along with all the other changes in my life, its time to move on. Id love to get a more cerebral, office position, but Ill probably just fall back on some other form of menial labour. Its had to find good work when you can only offer part-time attendance.
This post has taken me a while to write. Ive been cooking dinner and trying (so far, unsuccessfully) to install Windows 7 on my other laptop at the same time. I think dinners about ready and I dont think Windows ever will be. So Ill leave it there. With room for a PS should I think of something else.
Thanks for listening.
So the change I mentioned in a recent post is upon me with a vengeance.
The woman I'm house-sitting for is arriving back in Brisbane on Saturday. That means I need to find a new place to live. The way I've phrased this makes it sound like it's been sprung on me out of the blue but, while she is coming back sooner than expected, I've been kept in the loop about her plans and I've known this was coming for a few weeks.
Unfortunately I had to leave the rental premises I was living in prior to this house-sitting gig. Which means I don't have a 'home' to go back to. And, as we've just come out of the Xmas season (wherein, as a casual, I don't get paid) and I just bought myself a new netbook computer, I'm flat broke so I can't afford to pony up bond and rent in advance for a new place. So it looks like I'm going back to Mum's.
I know it sounds like I'm being quite negative about having to go home, but I'm not, not really. I know that in a lot of ways it will be good for me, even if it's only for a little while. I'm a little disappointed though, because I was hoping to get myself through my degree without having to resort to this sort of measure. I'm also deeply in love with the part of Brisbane I'm living in right now and the lifestyle it offers. I'm sad to be giving that up. I can always say I'm going to come back, but I know how life sweeps you along sometimes and I'm afraid that, once I leave, I won't get to come back. But I guess I'm the only one who can decide that.
On the plus side, I'm getting a car. Finally. An old girlfriend is moving to Canberra and is giving me her car; the car we bought as a couple so many years ago. It's even already in my name (of course, it was never actually taken out of my name but that's beside the point). It's actually quite fortuitous as I have no idea how I'd survive out in the burbs (what with work and Uni) without a car.
On the not-so plus side is the fact that I'm thinking a lot about my most recent ex lately. She's a great girl and I miss her at times. But I resist calling her as I've dicked her around and unintentionally played with her emotions too much already. I wasn't ready for a relationship when we met. I thought I was, so I pursued her, but once I had her, I realised I wasn't. So I broke it off. But I've always felt a bond and a connection to her, and found her very attractive. I like having her around, and I like to think Im good for her too, but I think that unless I'm very careful, I start giving her the wrong signals and leading her on, although I don't mean to. And she's going through some shit in her life right now. I think it's best if I just stay away from her. We haven't spoken in months. Yeah, I miss her.
Ive had it up to my eye teeth with my job. Im currently in a factory (it landed in my lap right when I needed work in a hurry) but its definitely not where I belong. Ive tolerated it for two years now, but I think that now, along with all the other changes in my life, its time to move on. Id love to get a more cerebral, office position, but Ill probably just fall back on some other form of menial labour. Its had to find good work when you can only offer part-time attendance.
This post has taken me a while to write. Ive been cooking dinner and trying (so far, unsuccessfully) to install Windows 7 on my other laptop at the same time. I think dinners about ready and I dont think Windows ever will be. So Ill leave it there. With room for a PS should I think of something else.
Thanks for listening.
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As for self-indulgent waffle, loved it. I find it fascinating that you not only adapt to change, but thrive on it.
And, again, thanks for Thursday night. It was great to see you. Really great! Again sometime soon, yeah? xx