So...hopefully this will be my last emo post for a while.
I saw her again yesterday, for the first time in months:
She's changed. She's pregnant.
She's no longer the girl I've been carrying around in my mind and heart.
I thought this moment would crush me but, instead, I feel freer than I have done in two years.
It's over, really over. Time to move on.
God, that's a weight off my shoulders.
PS - She looked at me, at one point, when I was talking about my friends, with a kind of pity in her eyes. She must have been thinking that I haven't moved forward an inch in my life since she left it. What she doesn't realise is that I've been where she is now and it didn't make me happy. I finally found a place where I feel like I belong; I feel, finally, like my life is my home. And I'm not giving this up for anything.
I saw her again yesterday, for the first time in months:
She's changed. She's pregnant.
She's no longer the girl I've been carrying around in my mind and heart.
I thought this moment would crush me but, instead, I feel freer than I have done in two years.
It's over, really over. Time to move on.
God, that's a weight off my shoulders.
PS - She looked at me, at one point, when I was talking about my friends, with a kind of pity in her eyes. She must have been thinking that I haven't moved forward an inch in my life since she left it. What she doesn't realise is that I've been where she is now and it didn't make me happy. I finally found a place where I feel like I belong; I feel, finally, like my life is my home. And I'm not giving this up for anything.
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I doubt she was thinking negatively about you. I'd imagine she was thinking pretty much the exact same things you were ... a mix of a bunch of things about herself.
Also, I feel the same way.
My life is so fucking good that I highfive myself sometimes.