rook

I need a change.

My life is pretty unfulfilling at the moment. I need a breath of fresh air. Unfortunately my life is also a precariously engineered house of cards as well. I'm scared to move anything for fear the whole thing will come tumbling down.

But I do need change. Last time my life was getting on top of me this much I eventually acted out and narrowly escaped a prison sentence. I'm NOT going down that road again.

It's a shame too because, individually, all the things in my life are great. Nothing's actually wrong. I like my job, I like where I live and my friends, I love being at Uni and I have an amazing girl who is completely in for me. I could, realistically, ask nothing more. None of this, however, changes the fact that every day it's getting harder to face the world.

Fantasies of living alone are starting to invade my waking world. Sometimes it's reasonable; just an apartment of my own, other times I see myself ensconced in a cave somewhere far, far from the madding crowd.

I don't like this. I don't like this at all...