Hi my babies, long time no talk. I have 40 messages to get to, ugh, I am sorry. I am still hanging in here and focusing on myself.
I had to have Furiae put to sleep 😢 she had more tumors inside her than I realized and she was bleeding from her vulva...the vet said even if I'd gotten the one visible one removed I wouldn't have been able to save her... she almost made it to 3. Lachrymae is next with another tumor on her near her armpit. I don't know what to do, they're the only things left that really make me happy and I just can't save them...
Still haven't heard back about the Phoenix position so I am giving up on that because I honestly don't have time to wait weeks and months for them to let me know if I'm EVEN in consideration. I'm going to try for full-time at my facility here and try to save up for a new car that won't nickel and dime me and move in a roommate in the mean time.
I am not gonna lie, I have basically just been working and sleeping. I really need to reschedule my psych appointment that I canceled a few weeks ago as I'm almost out of meds and not even doing well with them, perhaps I need a tweak or dosage change or different med added.
I found out yesterday that an uncle of mine died the night before of a heart attack, he was only 62...just in shock and trying to keep myself together um...I feel like such a downer on this site the last few months, I am sorry I'm not as fun as I used to be.
One good bit of news that cheered me up when I woke up is that Bernie Sanders is running for president again in 2020! I am so excited I almost cried. He is what we need. Well, regardless of whatever anyone here believes or whatever party they affiliate with, that at least made me smile this morning which is a big deal to me as I have not been smiling much lately. I am not well, but that small victory of a smile gives me hope. I did have a photoshoot this previous week, trying to get back on track.
Hang in there with me. Don't give up on me. I know I am a downer right now but I have fallen on dark times and your strength gives me strength.
Furiae is with Chromaggia now. 😢 my trusted, wonderful vet that has been fighting to save them from their tumors with me made me another keepsake with Furiae's pawprints...
Here are some photos from my recent shoot. Feeling some Debbie Harry vibes in these few.
Thank you all for being my friends, checking up on me even when I haven't been getting to messages and caring about me. I am still here. I am still fighting. Fight beside me.
Xoxo Romany
