i just ate a block of cheese at 8 am. still really drunk from the night before

"you look out the window, you think its better than me"

some nights it really gets to me
and this right now is killing me
unsure as forever
wit eyes so wide
its as clear as day
a wavering frightened glance
promise not to cry
one tears realeased the flood
sorrow blinks to brightness of day
be strong
i faked a smile
that crumbled
under sunday mornings sky
apologize
10,000 times
for days run over forever
in mymind
but middle ground
has given way
and where to step os now
what i face
no one to have
no hand to hold
i suppress my position
as a means to silence the truth
tormented by my every undying devotion to you
i cry terrified the truth will never calm
but for now if i can push on and forget

all will be alright

* the appleseed cast, noise ratchet, 7 angels 7 plagues, fed by fiction, brandston, fairweather, ASL, twelve hour turn, orchid, saetia, dispencing of false halos, fordirelifesake, fear before the march of flames, it dies today, mineral, up up down down let right left right B A start, hot cross, boys night out, alexisonfire, RUFIO, the faint(old stuff), you and i, coheed and cambria, cross my heart, poison the well, not waving but drowning, appease, park, skycamefalling, this.day.forward, forever is forgoten, lastdays of april, mewithoutyou, modest mouse, death cab for cutie, FINCH, piebald, red roses for a blue lady, rilo kiley, anatomy of a ghost, albert react.

I WILL listen to all these cds todayand sing along to every word. then place my head down to rest and cry myself to sleep