This may be my last journal entry for a little while. With Christmas shopping, gasonline, food, and other goodies, I can't afford to keep my account. I need to find a better job, with more hours, and better pay soon, or I won't be able to afford anything. Paying about two hundred dollars for gas every two weeks is becoming retarded. I don't want a job in Southren Indiana, though. If anyone knows of any job openings anywhere..please..let me know. 
And would someone please, please get me out of Southren Indiana.
I'm horribly depressed right now, I was looking for someone to talk to, but no one is awake. I really feel like my life is going no where. I have no hopes, no dreams, no ambitions, anymore. I feel like I am not really wanted around. Everything just has me stressed out. I'm worried about a whole bunch of stupid shit I don't need to be worried about. I can't sleep. All I really want to do is cry. I'm afraid I'm going to lose something, and if I keep this up, I will lose it. What do I really have going for me? Nothing. I should just crawl in a hole and sleep forever. Maybe then I wouldn't have to worry about my tummy hurting because I ate cheese, or being tired all the time, or sneaking cigarettes, or Christmas presents, or the price of gasoline going back up, or ex-boyfriends. I wish I knew I was was so unhappy right now. I'm sorry, I'm ranting. I just feel like I am a selfish bitch.
And would someone please, please get me out of Southren Indiana.
I'm horribly depressed right now, I was looking for someone to talk to, but no one is awake. I really feel like my life is going no where. I have no hopes, no dreams, no ambitions, anymore. I feel like I am not really wanted around. Everything just has me stressed out. I'm worried about a whole bunch of stupid shit I don't need to be worried about. I can't sleep. All I really want to do is cry. I'm afraid I'm going to lose something, and if I keep this up, I will lose it. What do I really have going for me? Nothing. I should just crawl in a hole and sleep forever. Maybe then I wouldn't have to worry about my tummy hurting because I ate cheese, or being tired all the time, or sneaking cigarettes, or Christmas presents, or the price of gasoline going back up, or ex-boyfriends. I wish I knew I was was so unhappy right now. I'm sorry, I'm ranting. I just feel like I am a selfish bitch.
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OOH, we have bar work available at the club. Just a few thousand mile commute
things will get better
trust me, i felt the same way about six months ago
now EVERYTHING has turned around.
im happier than i have ever been, and things are going well, better than i could have ever hoped.
i worried/stressed myself into a very unhealthy (physically/mentally) slump and now ive gotten to the point where i can sort of not worry so much about the little things, its hard, but you can do it.
quitting smoking sucks, but its totally worth it (money and health wise) and lactaid pills are super rad for your cheese eating enjoyment.
be good to my boy. mattymattmattgmoney (HAH) is a good guy, so if you hurt him, it will be on.
ps-you're cute.