The new chocolate altoids make my mouth happy. Dont worry about the last blog thingy. I wasnt actually upset or anything I just had that thought and wanted to post it. At least one of the models here seemed to have developed the I am better then everyone else attitude. But thats really kind of irrelevant. She can be how ever she wants and I dont have to pay attention to her. Hence why I was not really upset about the whole deal which also does not really matter. It was just that over the years SG has become my baby and I developed this image of her(SG) and a certain person really does not fit into that image. So she has become in my mind someone who does not belong here. Normally I couldn't care less about image. But in this case that image is one of people all standing next to each other and fighting and loving all the same. The image I saw in her however was one of hey I am special because I model here and I am pretty so love me and do things how I want them to be done.
I guess if I listen to some of my favorite philosophers none of this really matters. With that I will part and leave you with two things. The first is a quote.
Absurdism, like methodical doubt, has wiped the slate clean. It leaves us in a blind alley. But, like methodical doubt, it can, by returning upon itself, open up a new field of investigation, and in the process of reasoning then pursues the same course. I proclaim that I believe in nothing and that everything is absurd, but I cannot doubt the validity of my proclamation and I must at least believe in my protest.
-Albert Camus
The second is more of a question. What to you are the basic human emotions? I am not sure exactly what I am asking so be creative. Maybe I am asking what group of emotions would you require to want to keep on living. That doesn't sound right ether. Honestly I dont know. I plan to write an essay or a book or something on instinct and absurdism and primal human sorts of things, emotions included. Wow my mind is in chaos right now. That means I found something to turn it on again. I wonder what it was.
-roguemind 