So today was pretty special. I received a very large check and a letter stating the amount my pension will be each month. Both from Veterans Affairs. So I'm now semi retired. Going to continue my time off giving back what I so gracefully received. In my mind I keep telling myself I don't deserve this, but I'm slowly coming around. My past is my past. Those very dark days are over. I've come out the other side intact. Well, mostly intact. Everything seems so new. And a lot is new. I'm just not used to good things happening to me. But a gift has fallen on top of me. Has knocked me around a bit. And pointed the way to the pursuit of a lifelong desire. I now have the means to bring it all to fruition. And it's a beautiful fucking thing. This world works for you sometimes. And holy christ...it has so far worked for me. And what's more...my mind is working for me..and not against me. I still have a long road ahead. But on May 5 I will celebrate 6 months of being clean and sober. No whiskey, no cocaine, no pills. After 15 years of fun then not so fun and all the in between, I'm somehow still here. Feels pretty damn good. Think I'll put on some Otis Redding. And enjoy the moment...Goodnight kids...
Roger
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