At last the decision is made: I am in love. That's official. I've done with all the prevaricating, pondering, pontificating and pertinacity.
For better or worse she's the ONE. I just hope my feelings will be recipricated, if not I am in big trouble. This is the first time in my life I have been totally committed to one person. I am investing my soul. It's bloody scary. As I've tried to point out in this journal and eslewhere many times, I've loved many times but have never been "in love". And you all know there's a big difference. Even now, having made the decision, I'm still extremely nervous. I guess it's a form of cowardice. Whilst I honestly now have no doubts about my own feelings I can't help contemplating the possibility of her rejection. That would be a venture into the unknown for me. Would I survive? In realise, of course, I'm not unique and others have been here before. At least I can now feel I am a whole person. He who has not been in love has not lived.
Wish me luck.
For better or worse she's the ONE. I just hope my feelings will be recipricated, if not I am in big trouble. This is the first time in my life I have been totally committed to one person. I am investing my soul. It's bloody scary. As I've tried to point out in this journal and eslewhere many times, I've loved many times but have never been "in love". And you all know there's a big difference. Even now, having made the decision, I'm still extremely nervous. I guess it's a form of cowardice. Whilst I honestly now have no doubts about my own feelings I can't help contemplating the possibility of her rejection. That would be a venture into the unknown for me. Would I survive? In realise, of course, I'm not unique and others have been here before. At least I can now feel I am a whole person. He who has not been in love has not lived.
Wish me luck.
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fanny:
hey thanxxx for your comment on my set. i was thinking i might steer clear of being naked with fruit for a while x
yummygoodness:
good luck