rodbrit39

I'm still feeling good about the new deal with my Chinese girlfriend. We've talked on the phone a lot in the past couple of days and agree that we are about to enter a new phase of our relationship. But, although our hopes are high, we are keeping our feet on the ground. I think the real test will come when she gets over here again in two weeks. Suffice it to say, the thought of seeing her again excites me a lot. And it's the kind of excitement I've not felt for a long time, if ever before. I'm old enough and wise enough, however, to realise that this love game is a big lottery. Yet I also realise I'm being given a genuine chance to experience something that's hitherto eluded me in a life packed with failed relationships. Failed, that is, in that they didn't last because I just could not fall in love in the coommonly perceived sense. . Not that I yet have any idea what is meant by permanently being in love with one person. I am certain I have loved many times, if that means desire, devotion and caring. But until now I have never been able to say I want to stay in love with this person for the rest of my life. I have the feeling this may be about to change. I can sincerely see the possibility of a future with my little Chinese butterfly. It's not that she's been through some kind of metamorphosis....the qualities in our relationship that suggested we'd be good together for the long run have always been there. But last weekend some kind of missing element came into play. For some reason I cannot explain we suddenly got it, clicked, moulded as one.....I just hope it lasts. It would be nice to be just like every one else who's enjoying a monogamous relationship.

This is my girl: http://suicidegirls.com/members/rodbrit39/pics/24794/
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