Making friends online just reminds me of all my failures when I was a kid . . . the awkward silence, trying to impress people, it sucks. If I could just get people to notice me they'd have to like me, right? God . . I sound like I'm a kid again. In the city its easy. "Look, there's a freak, my new best friend!" "Hey a bunch of drunks, my new buddies!" I can't even get a word in with any of these people, they alreayd had cliches when they joined up or something . . . but ya . . . aside from not being able to make fake friends my life is in the shitter anyhow, maybe I should be worried about finding a job as opposed to finding people to chat with.
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melladoree:
oh how sad! I remember feeling that way then I made fake friends and I was all happy again! But now I am back to the sad place, no real friends in this new place I am not quite calling home! But I am sure that will change.... I did hang out with my nieghbor who borrowed money from me and stole my cds, that was an acomplishment....