Fuck it
last nights' bliss is now long gone
the other side sucks, it feels so wrong
crashing down rough like a tonne of bricks
i look for distraction i'll try slaps and kicks
no physical action, harm nor pain
i know that this shit aint right for my brain
i'm turning myself mental you'll find
my fucked self abuse is all in my mind
i made the choice, i used my free will
i wanted some fun so swallowed a pill
now again i am swearing same future decision
be only made wisely after thought and revision
of the situation i'll try rearrange
again here i go, my life needs a change
i know i can do it, i'm gonna succeed
i've done it before, last time it was weed
Never again is not my intention
that is a phrase i will never mention
something so hard is easy to fail
with a little effort i'll stay on the rail
gonna get on a roll
and find self control
got a sweet new house mate
he'll help me stay straight
last nights' bliss is now long gone
the other side sucks, it feels so wrong
crashing down rough like a tonne of bricks
i look for distraction i'll try slaps and kicks
no physical action, harm nor pain
i know that this shit aint right for my brain
i'm turning myself mental you'll find
my fucked self abuse is all in my mind
i made the choice, i used my free will
i wanted some fun so swallowed a pill
now again i am swearing same future decision
be only made wisely after thought and revision
of the situation i'll try rearrange
again here i go, my life needs a change
i know i can do it, i'm gonna succeed
i've done it before, last time it was weed
Never again is not my intention
that is a phrase i will never mention
something so hard is easy to fail
with a little effort i'll stay on the rail
gonna get on a roll
and find self control
got a sweet new house mate
he'll help me stay straight
livingdeadkirst:
so you are alive 
lelaina:
the key is moderation. it took my about 6 years to work that out 
i understand and can relate to everything you wrote. you'll find that if its only once a month or so, the comedowns arent so bad. but life isnt quite as exciting. trying to find a balance. you'll find one too 
i now just party twice as hard when the event arises!! teehee
i understand and can relate to everything you wrote. you'll find that if its only once a month or so, the comedowns arent so bad. but life isnt quite as exciting. trying to find a balance. you'll find one too i now just party twice as hard when the event arises!! teehee