just looking at myself in the SGNY pics makes me feel really fucking ugly. i almost cried last night cuz im soo ugly. and its really not even as if i was digging for compliments. i really really felt so friggin ugly and fat. i was so sad. today its kind of wore off but im still not gonna look at myself in the mirror.

i feel depressed. as if maybe i used to be nice to look at, but somehow over the years ive morphed into this odd mutated creature who only slightly resembles the april of years past. ooohh humanity!