rockepidemic

Oh wow. It's been awhile, hasn't it?

So how is everyone?



Okay, that's good.

So, how am I? Not too bad, things have been less weird before, but things are looking up.

Classes start again in 2 weeks. I'm actually looking forward to it. Even at a community college, I feel like I'm actually learning something, or at least applying myself to something worthwhile. I like that.

This fall is going to mark a large change in my life. The last 6 months were more of a gradual build up to this, but it's been looming the entire time. And now is the time that makes or breaks me.

I'm going to be a 19 year old, going to school, with a job, and a mortgage.

I'm ready for this. I have been for awhile, although I didn't know it. But it's time. I'm not worried, I'm not nervous. Giddy perhaps, but not nervous. Even things I'm not sure about, I have confidence I'll pull through.

I have a couple of months to put things together. After school starts I'll be looking for a steadier job that can work with my hours (which are actually reasonable this semester), and return to building up my savings. It'll happen, I'll make it happen. I can finish walking the path I have been setting up for myself for the last 3 years.

Nothing's going to hold me back. Not sunshine friends, not by a confused 21 year old ex who is nothing more than a little girl who doesn't know what she wants, not by people who don't like me simply because I look "too weird" or "too young".

For as long as I can remember I've done everything I can to encourage my friends and family to aspire to whatever they want to be, to accomplish whatever their dreams are, and now I get my chance.

I believe in myself again, and my direction. It's been months since I've felt that way, no thanks to certain individuals. But I think it's time for this young man to shine...