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It's only 11am and I am already up I have the house clean and I have gone to the grocery store. I feel like today I am really gonna get a lot accomplished. Which is good cause there is a lot that I need to do. I am dying my hair right now and I am gonna go and rinse it out in about 30 minutes and then I am off to clean the van and go pick up some medicine at the pharmacy. Today is my busy day if you cant tell. It is my first day off this week so I am trying to get everything done. And I am. So I can relax on my other 2 days off. I am also off Wednesday and Saturday. I cant believe he gave me a Saturday off.

So I am searching for a new job. I really need one. I am not making enough money there and not getting enough hours. So the job search starts. And I refuse to work in food service bullshit it is just not my thing. So I hope I can find something.

I am making dinner tonight and I am also making cheesecake swirl brownies. I think I might buy some ice cream and hot fudge and make sundeas. Mmmmmm that sounds good

Me and Sean had another arguement last night and I left. I feel like nothing can ever go right I swear why cant our relationship be easier. I mean I understand that we have a lot of problems we need to work out but why cant they be worked out already. I just want us to be happy and I want to be planning our wedding but we have established that there wont be a wedding till everything is worked out. which really hurts me. He said that he wouldnt marry me till it was all worked out and that really hurt. He told me with the way things are right now he doesnt know if we will ever get married. Well I am not waiting for ever. If the relationship is gonna progress I am gonna have to move on. I want to be married to Sean I love him like I have never loved anyone. And it hurts so bad to know he doesnt want to marry me right now. It is so crazy cause truthfully I have never felt the way I feel about him about anyone. I say stuff and it is like he is thinking it or he says something that i was thinking and we finish each others sentences. I know he is my soulmate and that might sound corney but it seems true. ok enough mushy stuff i know

well I am off to take a shower and rinse out my hair dye

I just wanted to add I want this purse

so bad. It is only found in Europe and if I order it online I am gonna end up spending over 80 bucks . Cause the purse alone is $50 and then shipping is another 30 or so bucks. I want it so bad though. My birthday is coming up so i will cross my fingers. Sean found it for me online and it is cherries and the cherry part is a skull head. It is awesome. He keeps trying to find it online somewhere cheaper for me but he hasnt found anywhere yet. I will continue to cross my fingers. I have an obsession with purses if you didnt know. I need to add this one to my collection. If you would like to help with funds message me and I will give you my address and you can send me some money to help me buy it. I would be so appreiciative


Question of the day


Why do I have to be so insecure I need someone to make me smile right now?


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