I am adding to my update from yesterday.....
I cleaned the house today and it smells good and looks so nice lets hope it stays that way. I am making dinner tonight.I am making hamburger helper beef stroganoff. I love this shit
I am dying my hair again. like the way in my profile pic. it faded back to the blond and there was still a little red and everyone really liked it and i will admit it looked cool but then i noticed that a lot of the red was gone so I am doing it again. I look like an alien cause I have foil on my head to hold the red parts.
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Well that is all for now
So Sunday at my parents was all over the top drama and I am really upset about the fact that my family cant get together without there being some of the siblings arguing. My two brothers got into it and then my sister being the nosy one had to stick her nose in it. And of course I stuck up for my little brother cause we are closer in age difference so that is how it always is. My older brother tore my little brother bike up and it wouldnt be so bad but my brother is really into riding his bike and he has put a lot of money into it. My little brother ran off and nobody saw him for hours it was sad
I was pissed 
and went off on my older brother and sister. And of course they thought they were right. My Little brother has a very expensive bike and when he has the money he buys bettter parts for it well my older brother did over $500 in damage. and of course my older brother bitched me out for taking his side and everyone was in shambles. It is really upsetting cause before my grandma passed away we never fought like this and would never think of going at it like they did on Sunday at any family thing. I guess I just miss her so much. I was a lot like my Grandma and I look like her I have a lot of the williams famiy traits. so Her death hurt me so much. I think my family needs to sit and talk everything out cause I am sick of everyone being at someones throat.
Alright sorry about the rant..... I think tomorrow I am gonna take some flowers to my Grandmas grave I dont go out there enough and I just think I need to, as I said I am trying to change my life and I think dealing with her death a little bit more will help, she died so suddenly that I just was so shocked all I did for a week or two was cry. It has been over 2 year since her death and I still hurt. . I think on my road to changing I need to deal with the death and go to her grave more cause I think it is the only thing that will help I truely feel like ever since she died that a piece of me was torn away and that maybe to get myself backk to what I used to be I need to go to the grave more and talk to her and stuff. I know it sounds funny but that is the way i feel
man guys sorry I am being depressing. I just got to thinking and these are my true feelings. here is a good poem i found it really touched me
I Did Not Die
Do not stand at my grave and forever weep.
I am not there; I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumns rain.
When you awaken in the mornings hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and forever cry.
I am not there. I did not die.
Melinda Sue Pacho
Ok so I am off Monday-Friday cause work didnt give me very many hours. Oh well I will enjoy the little vacation.
Well I am off to surf the net and find something to do
Question of the day?
well there isnt gonna be a question leave a joke or picture to make me smile please
I cleaned the house today and it smells good and looks so nice lets hope it stays that way. I am making dinner tonight.I am making hamburger helper beef stroganoff. I love this shit
I am dying my hair again. like the way in my profile pic. it faded back to the blond and there was still a little red and everyone really liked it and i will admit it looked cool but then i noticed that a lot of the red was gone so I am doing it again. I look like an alien cause I have foil on my head to hold the red parts.
.
Well that is all for now
So Sunday at my parents was all over the top drama and I am really upset about the fact that my family cant get together without there being some of the siblings arguing. My two brothers got into it and then my sister being the nosy one had to stick her nose in it. And of course I stuck up for my little brother cause we are closer in age difference so that is how it always is. My older brother tore my little brother bike up and it wouldnt be so bad but my brother is really into riding his bike and he has put a lot of money into it. My little brother ran off and nobody saw him for hours it was sad
I was pissed and went off on my older brother and sister. And of course they thought they were right. My Little brother has a very expensive bike and when he has the money he buys bettter parts for it well my older brother did over $500 in damage. and of course my older brother bitched me out for taking his side and everyone was in shambles. It is really upsetting cause before my grandma passed away we never fought like this and would never think of going at it like they did on Sunday at any family thing. I guess I just miss her so much. I was a lot like my Grandma and I look like her I have a lot of the williams famiy traits. so Her death hurt me so much. I think my family needs to sit and talk everything out cause I am sick of everyone being at someones throat.
Alright sorry about the rant..... I think tomorrow I am gonna take some flowers to my Grandmas grave I dont go out there enough and I just think I need to, as I said I am trying to change my life and I think dealing with her death a little bit more will help, she died so suddenly that I just was so shocked all I did for a week or two was cry. It has been over 2 year since her death and I still hurt.
. I think on my road to changing I need to deal with the death and go to her grave more cause I think it is the only thing that will help I truely feel like ever since she died that a piece of me was torn away and that maybe to get myself backk to what I used to be I need to go to the grave more and talk to her and stuff. I know it sounds funny but that is the way i feel
man guys sorry I am being depressing. I just got to thinking and these are my true feelings. here is a good poem i found it really touched me
I Did Not Die
Do not stand at my grave and forever weep.
I am not there; I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumns rain.
When you awaken in the mornings hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and forever cry.
I am not there. I did not die.
Melinda Sue Pacho
Ok so I am off Monday-Friday cause work didnt give me very many hours. Oh well I will enjoy the little vacation.
Well I am off to surf the net and find something to do
Question of the day?
well there isnt gonna be a question leave a joke or picture to make me smile please
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it's sad when families are mean to each other. i hope visiting yur grandmother makes you feel better.